Right now I know that this life is a very long journey, life is full of obstacles and coban.Hidup which I lived feeling of her wasted,,, without meaning no artinta,,, what I do is always wrong, mistakes are always I do, so I feel no sense hidupqu benar2 her, at the time wanted to start hidupqu this aq,, aq feel stiff, scared, and no spirit at all, and even people around me who were far away from my ,,, I do not know because I'm stupid, timid, quiet, ugly,,,, lgi knows what makes them all that much dr I,, no one wants to close with my family as well as my own,,,, they are so compact,, always together, while I,, "" I'm just myself, and always alone in the room like without occupants,,, I'm afraid,,,, I'm afraid my life will always own my life will always be lonely ...

Gmn my fate later yaaa,,,, GOD ,,,,??? Will life will continue like this it will ,,,??? I know, I know I was wrong, I know,,, I was very much sin,,,, my sin does not akn can count,,, and an infinite number,,, once I was never grateful, I never use kelebihanku,,, I never studied seriously, when so many sacrifices and expenditure on family Untk lakuakan by me, for my school fee,, operating on the lips (grow warts), treatment of my eyes, and everything is done for me,, But what? me a lot against their words, I often argue their ,, I often let them down,, I never follow their orders, and even worship was rarely I do.

All I do is always make them they are angry,,. Every home sekaolah, instead of returning home, I would not be alone even direction,, lakeside solitude,, sometimes I cry myself, why am I like this,,, what demons somehow pervasive in this my body, so that my body stiff, slow, and silent, and, I dunno,, aq confused,,, I'm confused with this myself,,,

Arriving d school, my brain stiff, it's hard to accept the lesson,, teman2 any school no one wants to be friends with me, I was always alone dsekolah,, mmhhhmh what's ,,,,, I,,, what His sense of this world I live d,, which can only nyusahin others, disappointing other people, and even my own self disappointing,,,, ever,,, once I tried something really stupid, I tried to kill self,,, but I still think this will definitely change my life,,,, everything would have his way,, all must have a silver lining,,

And I also think, that I am also very lucky with myself I was still able to keep myself from a very free society these teenagers, many of my friends trjerumus there, so they drop out of school because of promiscuity, the ,, and I'm very,,, and very grateful kana GOD still protect me, keep me free sex dr it,, My Self is still awake,, myself still a virgin, without a touch of non mukhrimku setitikpun dr ..

Let, let time will answer that, let time that will be run following the steps of my life, I continue to keep myself dri akn perbuatn adultery,,, I would keep myself,,, now I'll try to smile, friendly, and not akn I am proud of this, I will throw all times suramku,, times that makes me sad, the days that make me slumped in solitude, I akn try to keep smiling even though in my heart is always crying,,, ,